more_magic | hey, it is a job, it pays a lot; is it disservicing someone?

That he waits until the end of the week isn't delaying or reluctance--or, frankly, a resistance to the absurdity of taking romantic advice from a high schooler--merely a desire, after having done so much wrong, to finally get one thing right. He knows he's behaved abominably, said things that he never thought himself capable of, and even after Caleb's assurances, Darlington's not sure forgiveness is a thing that Alex will be able to find where he's concerned.

He holds onto the hope of it, along with his memories of that first week he'd spent in Darrow; their easy intimacy, growing close in a way that they'd only begun to manage back in New Haven, and the surprising and utterly wanted course their night had taken up at Kagura. Thinks, too, of the certainty in Caleb's voice as he'd said You make her feel the butterflies. He wants, more than anything, not to be wrong about this.

He'd agreed to work this month's Final Friday evening program at the museum, and by the time he's finished helping the other front-of-house staff clean up and pack everything away, it's already past ten. If Alex is working tonight, it's more than likely that she's gone already, but after a brief stop at his own apartment, Darlington's on his way to the Bramford. He knocks on her door, using his key when there's no answer, finding the apartment empty and dark.

There's a moment where he thinks about waiting, about being there once more when she gets home just like he had been the night he'd come to work on the wards. It is, he knows, some kind of a coward's choice; the easy way out of a situation that he should have been strong enough to face up to well before now. Breathing out a long sigh, he leaves the bag he'd brought by the side of her couch and heads back into the cold, hailing a cab and giving the driver an address that gains him a winking look in the rearview mirror that he tries to ignore.

Only a week ago, he'd sworn he'd never go back, that there was no place for him here even if Alex was hellbent on making it hers. Even now, he'd rather be anywhere else. But there's no other place Darlington knows he should be tonight if he's going to make some attempt at fixing even a fraction of what he alone had broken.

They pull up outside the club on Paper, and after paying the driver and going through the ritual of cover and ID with the bouncer at the door, Darlington goes inside. The music is just as loud and grinding as before, the crowds around the stage just as vulgar, the drinks from the bar just as watered down; once again, it fills him with displeasure and unease and has him glancing towards the exit. He stays instead, choosing a table that's neither fully lit by the stage nor completely hidden in the shadows and setting down his drink.

This may only break things further between them, bring about an assumption or an argument that will sever the thin threads that still remain of their tie to one another. Darlington can only hope, with the kind of surrendering faith that he's reserved for few other things in his life--and once before for Alex, on a Halloween that turned into nothing he could have anticipated--that it'll be something altogether different.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

From:

takecourage

"That's a good start," she says, still rocking her hips, one hand on his shoulder, the other at her tits, rolling one nipple between finger and thumb. "How many girls have you slept with? Including me?"

From:

more_magic

"Including you?" he says, biting his lip as she plays with her tits, fondling her nipple and rolling the piercing. "Four."

He'd joked that first day about excusing his Lethe absences with the suggestion that he was a player--and even now, he's not sure if Jordan or E.J. ever totally bought the in a band with some UConn guys story he'd actually used instead--but it was only ever something flip, another deflection he'd thrown up in the face of a girl he'd never expected. "If you're surprised by that, I can only pray it's positively so."

From:

takecourage

"I thought it'd be a few more, honestly," she says, shifting her other hand so she can squeeze both tits at the same time. "Are you an ass or tits man, Danny?"

From:

more_magic

He laughs, ducking his head slightly. "Fair enough."

The heat in his eyes as she continues fondling herself may be all the answer Alex really needs to the next question, but after swallowing hard, he responds more formally. "Tits. Which I suspect you asked just to hear me say it."

From:

takecourage

"I really did," she says, keeping up the teasing touch, shifting her hands slightly so that she can rub her nipples between her fingers. "I just want to listen to you talk dirty to me, Danny."

From:

more_magic

"You really are crass, you know that?" he says, his tone nothing but fond. She grinds down against him a little harder on the next roll of her hips, and he squirms slightly beneath her, the friction making his head spin.

"What kind of things do you want to hear?"

From:

takecourage

It does sound good, in his tone, in his voice, and Alex keeps up the steady roll of her hips.

"Have you...you know. Fantasized about me? Since New Year?"

From:

more_magic

"Christ, Stern," he mutters, turning his head away even as he grins. "Yes. Starting with that morning, when I was in the shower."

They both know that morning was also the beginning of the strain that formed between them, the thing he'd been too cowardly to address until tonight, but the twist of embarrassment that forms in his chest is slight and fades away almost as soon as it starts. "Mostly a replay of the night before, but a few stray thoughts about what we might have gotten up to, if one of us had had the foresight to bring a condom."

From:

takecourage

Alex bites her lip, curling her arms around his neck, her tits bouncing slightly as she rocks her hips down against his.

"Tell me how you pictured fucking me?"

From:

more_magic

Alex squirms in his lap, her tits bouncing, and he groans again. "Laying you on your back in that ridiculous bed," he says. "Learning what it felt like to have your legs wrapped around my waist as we...in the throes. As it were." Darlington raises one eyebrow.

"If we'd been prepared enough for more than one round, also discovering what it looked like if you rode me."

From:

takecourage

Alex wants both things really badly, but she's also working them both up so deliciously and she doesn't want that to end either. She's never done anything like this before. She shifts, slipping her hand between them so that she can squeeze his cock through his jeans.

"How big are you, Danny?" She asks, with a flicker of a wicked grin.

From:

more_magic

Her hand slides between them, fingers curving around the bulge in his jeans, and he can't keep himself from pushing into the touch. "And if I told you I'd never measured myself?" he says, each word articulated with slightly more effort than usual. "Based on your reaction the last time, I don't think I disappointed."

From:

takecourage

"I think you'd be the only guy I've ever met who hasn't," she says, huffing out a laugh. "Do you want to touch me?"

From:

more_magic

"Not quite the unique status I might have anticipated," he says, head tilting up a bit to look at her. He lets out another shivering breath. "Yes, Alex. More than anything."

From:

takecourage

She kisses him then and it's permission and encouragement and everything in between.

"Please, Danny," she says.

From:

more_magic

He matches the desire and need in her kiss with more than enough of his own, his hands going first to her sides, just holding her as his fingers run along the line of her ribs. "Tell me if I do anything wrong," he murmurs against her mouth. "Or if I'm doing everything right."

Slowly, Darlington slides his hands inwards, cupping her tits, the pad of his thumbs smudging against the peaks of her nipples. As his thumbs move in a slow, lazy back-and-forth, he kisses down her jaw, his breath sighing out of him.

From:

takecourage

"You just want to hear me talk dirty," she says, shifting in his lap, rocking forward against him and arching her back to press her tits into his hands as he plays with her nipples like that.

From:

more_magic

"Call it an added benefit," he says, continuing the downward path of his kisses against the side of her neck and along the curve of one shoulder, lips brushing the inked stars now spangling her skin. She arches into his hands and Darlington takes that as an invitation, as permission, the slow rub of his thumbs changing with a slight shift of his hand to a sliding kind of pinch. "I get to learn what you like, and hear the way you say it all at once."

From:

takecourage

"You think I'm vulgar," she points out, teeth digging into her lips as he starts to pinch at her nipples like that. "That's good."

From:

more_magic

"I'd deny that, but you'd call me on it in your own inimitable fashion," he says, smirking. She bites her lip, squirming a little as he pinches her, and he keeps up the touch. "What else have you liked, that I've done already? Tonight or on New Year's."

He pauses, looking up at her. "Or Halloween, if it merits inclusion."

From:

takecourage

"New Year was the first time anyone ever went down on me," she admits, still rocking her hips, pressing into his touch. "No-one else ever bothered."

From:

more_magic

Beyond the crime scene photos and autopsy reports in her file, there'd been precious little about the small-time drug dealer that had styled himself as Alex's boyfriend in life. Hearing Alex make that small and all-too-casual confession, though, lowers Darlington's already low opinion of Leonard Beacon a few additional degrees.

"Glad to have been the first," he murmurs, easily setting aside that brief darker turn of his thoughts. None of it mattered now; not here, not tonight. "And if we're on the topic of New Year's, that was the first time anyone gave me a blowjob quite like that."

From:

takecourage

"You've been hanging around with the wrong sort of girls, Danny," she says, with a broad grin, still rocking idly in his lap. She smooths her hands down his chest, unbuttoning the first couple of buttons on his shirt, tracing her thumb against bare skin.

From:

more_magic

"So it seems." She keeps moving against him, teasing and squirming, and he can't help a soft smile at the gentle stroke of her thumb against his skin. His own hands leave her tits, running along the slim planes of her back.